When I was 13, I dated a guy named Mike. He had that bad boy charm, and the looks. I completely fell for him which was so easy since I was so young. But over the course of 4 months, he broke up with me 9 times because of his constant cheating which was also 9 times and his excuse, 'comittment issues'. He really ruined me. I fell into a bad habit of doing drugs, drinking, harming myself, and just hating myself. Also, after him, I picked the absolute worst people to be with. Abusive, forceful, cheating guys and girls who had only made my situation worse. But now, it has been 3 and 1/2 years since I've kicked him and the others out of my life. I've been to rehab, and gotten better. I'm now successful, drug/alcohol/self abuse free and have found an amazing girl. Her and I have been dating for 4 months now, and our connection is strong. I feel like I really am in love with her, and that she feels the same. She's good for me, and has helped me more than anyone ever has. She understands what I've gone through and has helped me cope. I love her more than anything and do want to be with her. My problem is, recently, me and her went to a party and Mike was there. We didn't talk much. But now, my feelings for him have come back. I don't want my past to ruin what I have now. But I don't know how to get rid of the feelings I have for him again. Am I wrong for thinking of him when I'm with her? And comment for advice please. I need it :/
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January 18, 2010 at 3:34 pm by LaurenGrae
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#4 by Anonymous
hes an asshole.
#3 by IAmShort17
there is no right or wrong with this! Yeah you shouldn't exactly think about him but you cant help it. If you give it time all those thoughts will pass and everything will go back to normal!
#2 by Anonymous
you have personal issues you need to work through before you should even be in a relationship, honestly. you got involved too young with someone and you started self-harming in all kinds of ways? why don't you start with realizing his cheating was not your fault, and what about statutory rape? honestly, you weren't old enough to make that decision, so you were kinda actually molested. you need to stay as far the fuck away from him as possible. and really get your head straight. if you truly realized what a fucking piece of shit he is, you would never have those feelings again. you got used, and somehow you think you deserve it... you don't love yourself. and now you've wound up with another girl who thinks you ought to be sexually promiscuous with your ex? seriously now... stay out of relationships until you can learn what a healthy one is.
#1 by Anonymous
Yes you are wrong especially if the girl your with now is good to you! Your ex put you through hell why would you want to go back to that! Just think about all the stuff he did to you and look at what you have now! You would be a fool to go back to that!!!!